Freitag, 17. Oktober 2014

This was supposed to happen.

Today it is friday and I'm feeling this bad. My new year started with a trainee and living in Mannheim. But I broke up and now I'm livig at home again and work in a Kindergarten for one year. My wish for my near future is to get a scholarship for the United States for a university to study there: "voice". My relationship ended and so I began to think about a few of my friends, and I dont have the strength to fight for some of them anymore. I decided to give up everything. I decided to start new and I hope may be there are some things who'll help me, but my friends.. And I think all of this was supposed to happen, may be this is the point of no-return but I think to start new is a good idea and good for my karma, too. I will start to travel a lot, find new friends, and get my real goals back. I wanna fall in love but not on clouds, but hard. I wanna get tattooed for my own reasons and memories.I wanna get famous and get rich and so on, nothing matters anymore but my own goals. And I wanna find my inner peace. So tomorrow is a new day to be a better person than today. "Waiting for someone who tell me it's my turn to decide!"

Freitag, 17. Mai 2013

Stressed. Depressed. But well dressed.

In the last weeks, I was. But I think, that everything, well almost, will be brighter now. BECAUSE: There's someone new in my life <3 and everything looks great this time, but I'm ill. But I hope, I'll be healthy in a few days because I write some big tests and I don't want to miss them. I want to have tattoos, it would be "Hope" and an anchorand may be the elefant by dalí. For now. (: I started to watch a new series the day before yesterday. It's called Dexter. Tonight I watch the next episodes and I hope I'll like it then more than I liked after the first episode. (: In the next weeks there will be a few big tests in some subjects..the next is in religion and after that my hated-loved subject mathmatics. <'3 But I will learn how I never learned before, so I hope to get a good mark. I ordered some new clothes, when they're here, I will show you the things.<3 xoxo

Samstag, 2. März 2013

Birthday-Girl - Everything a hipster needs

Yesterday, on 1st March, there was my birthday. My friends came and we sit along in my living room. Almost everything was fun. But my mom wasn't so glad about, when she came home..
My other presents I'll get today but first these, which I got yesterday. (:

Everything a hipster needs - Club Mate. (: and sparkling wine <3

Muesli which is vegan, love my friends.<3

Socks to wear where everyone can see them. :D So cute.<3

Wool - so I can finally begin to knit

Nerdy glasses, which were part of the content of the tote bag.

My own hipster tote bag, with love from my friends and handpainted.<3

I'm so fucking proud of it. (:

My new shoes from my mom.<3

Clothes and some leggings from my mom.<3

We'll see what I'll get today from the rest of my family.
See ya. <3

Sonntag, 3. Februar 2013

I'm vegan and drink my coffee with soy milk.

Anything isn't great at this time. But I want to do something to make everything better.
In the musical in theatre I've got my role and if the main actress can't play I would. Sounds fantastically!
The first half year is over in my school time in the two last classes. So I can do more sports at the moment. It's Sunday. I'm vegan and drink my coffee with soy milk. (:
And I want to starve again. To be thin for my role and be perfect for the rest of my life. To be loved. And to have already someone who love me..I'd prefer he would, but he doesn't. So I'm in friendship with him and everything's okay now.
I'm still not over him..but I think I make the first steps to be.
So I begin to play bass guitar again and will learn guitar. And there's my band. Sounds cool, but it's not. haha. But we should play at my mom's birthday so we must learn some songs and write our own songs.
So everything's going to be okay now, well - I hope so..

And sorry that I don't write this long time.. ):

Sonntag, 16. Dezember 2012

Back from slovakia

I was in Slovakia, because of the Comenius Project on our school the whole last week.
It was a great time and I like the people very very much. <3
We went on a bar - drank a bit too much. (Absinth, Wodka, Borovička)
We went to cinema - cried a bit. (Anna Karenina)
We went to town - bought a bit too much.
It was good - a bit too much.
Yesterday we came home, Laura was crying. I like her very much - she's cute. <3
The guys and girls there was so f*cking awesome!
Here are the pictures. (;

Bright lights in town.<3

The town out from a look in front of our school.

The German and Slovak students. Laura take the pic.

I love winter. <3
Two Slovak guys with Laura and me.

Laura and me in cinema. <33

The Slovak students and I at the bar.

The Slovak students and Laura and me in the middle at the bar.

Laura and Mišo.<3

The Slovak students.

Mišo, Laura and Miro

Miro, Laura, Mišo and I.

Taking some sweet pics.
Slovak and German students in the cafeteria.

She is so cute.<3

The shopping mall was so beautiful.<3

And last but not least the Christmas Tree. (:

Košice again. It was snowing.

It was one of the best evenings I've ever had.<3
Thank you.


This is Košice.

Driving back home.
I am missing the snow in Germany, I hope that it'll coming back 'till Christmas.<3